Carry my own stuff and run out of this house and just find a room or a void deck and die that my wish i dont wish for all the goods i only wish for happiness

i only wan to laugh and laugh that what i am trying to do for the pass 4 year i wan to forget all my nitemare and bad past that why i sleep and sleep hoping time just fky past mi and just send mi to a place where i can just do my own stuff and DIe

my 18 year Birthday
1st i hope i can move out of this house and stay alone
2rd wish i wan to repay my parent for what they given mi and what they teach me
3rd wish i hope i can stay happy forever with my family loved one and friend

Hope i wont have a other tearful Brithday sadness never stop growing within me
i pray there is a pill for me to eat and just forget all the sadness within me kill them all
all i wish and all i hope

Next year Birthday hope can sit now at a beach and eat my birthday cake or any thing will do








How many day have pass how many day i have see the sun how many nite i have sleep did i count did i try, i forget